more bullshit.

So yall, I dont know no more. I mean I was good. What happened? He called? Im that weak? Like damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, Im tired of this jo! Yeah, I wandered off. But can you blame me? There was a void that he wasnt filling. And when you so used to people doing them, you forget that they care about anything you do.

Buddy treated me to dinner, smoked me out, and shit just happened ya know… told me I was beautiful, told me I had a fat ass,. lol. texted me everyday, call me and would yell, “Why havent you called me all week?!” Guess who got my Chase account out the hole… 

Lol. Nawww, that was me. 

Of course I thought about the love of my life. Why wouldnt I? And then I thought if he kept from fucking a bitch for me…. nah.

I havent lost my mind, yall. Lbs. This guy is somebody I’ve known since the seventh grade. He doesnt come close to my best friend. But when the person you wanna be with wont play they part, WHAT are you supposed to do?  I mean the odds already fuckin against us. I can’t talk to nobody about it, cause all I get is a fuckin “I told you so.”   

A part of me wants to die for what I did, and the other part of me wants to say, “See baby, I could do it too. Hurt, dont it?” We all know that aint me doe.

I was waiting on him to do some out of the ordinary shit for me, you know. Surprise me with flowers for no reason, take me out, show up at my school, buy us matching shirts, call my mama and say, “I wanna marry your daughter,” get tested for me. (aint no tellin w/ the bitches he done fucked) 

I dont know, yall. I just wanna be special. lbs. I mean this boy at school didnt even like me. Just wanted to be my prom date, and waited outside my 8th period with a teddy bear and candy. Why cant he do dat? 

I dont have no time to be askin questions doe. Its too much on my plate. I really think this needs to be end, for both of our sake.